My first Memorial Day Weekend without Lionel

This is a time of the year when he would always be so supportive and helpful,, as I got ready for the annual reading of one of my new plays. Making sure I ate, fussing at me for losing so much sleep, calling me at the office when I was there in the middle of the night writing, helping me pack stuff and carry stuff, and calming me down when I was nervous...not having him as apart of all this tarnishes the experience...as it has everything else. I'm trying to go on...but it is so painful.