Take his name off the mailbox,
Remove him from our outgoing phone message,
Look at my e-mails or calendar entries from October - December of last year,
Empty his things from the medicine cabinet,
Erase his hospital photos and videos from my phone, before I accidentally see them again ...
I've been following your writing here on this blog, and I really do hope that blogging is now a source of catharsis for you. There have been times when I wanted to respond to something that you wrote, but I know it's best that you work things out your own way. To me, that's part of what coming to terms with loss and grief is. Maybe that means "erasing" your friend's hospital photos and videos - and maybe it doesn't. Think about it! Maybe you don't need to see them anytime soon, but maybe one day you'll regret having done so. Maybe!
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